2005
I hope that you have a good New Year, that the New Year will bring you health, especially mental health, that we continue to be in each other lives and that our friendship doesn’t become stagnate. I pray that I find the love in my life that I’ve wanted, and that the love you have in your life continues to grow. I pray that my faith grows.
Each year I make the same resolution: To be the best me I can be. But this year I want to remind myself of my mantra I used to have it posted on my desk but this past year I didn’t. My mantra:
Beauty is in the eye of the holder, and I am the beholder; I am the best me there is; I am a phenomenal woman. This year I kind of forgot those words of wisdom.
When I look back at this year I see some major things that could have happened that didn’t. I almost lost my friends. Not that I did anything to harm them, it was just that we all kind of went our own way, they had problems and I had problems. One I even tried to get rid of and one I just couldn’t get a hold of. But God works. He didn’t let us go. He gave us the love of each other and the power to hold tight through our difficult times.
I fell in love. I fell in lust and even though that didn’t work the way I thought it would it is still ok. My patience have been tried with family but we are still family. I treasure all the good things that have happened this year. I treasure knowing that I am still capable of falling in love, that life has not jaded me. That even in my most weaken moments that I can laugh at others and especially at myself. I am so grateful that even though I did not have my mantra I stayed true to most of myself.
With all the things that could have happened I had a great year. No, I didn’t win the lottery, and I didn’t get the man- I kept my friends and gained new ones. I gained a greater faith.
For you I pray that everything comes the way you want, the way you deserve it to be. I pray that the love I have in my heart will not have to be hidden for long. I pray that when loves comes my way that I recognize it. And I pray that our faith grows.
