DSP

I hope that you have a good New Year, that the New Year will bring you health, especially mental health, that we continue to be in each other lives and that our friendship doesn’t become stagnate. I pray that I find the love in my life that I’ve wanted, and that the love you have in your life continues to grow. I pray that my faith grows.

Each year I make the same resolution: To be the best me I can be. But this year I want to remind myself of my mantra I used to have it posted on my desk but this past year I didn’t. My mantra:

Beauty is in the eye of the holder, and I am the beholder; I am the best me there is; I am a phenomenal woman. This year I kind of forgot those words of wisdom.

When I look back at this year I see some major things that could have happened that didn’t. I almost lost my friends. Not that I did anything to harm them, it was just that we all kind of went our own way, they had problems and I had problems. One I even tried to get rid of and one I just couldn’t get a hold of. But God works. He didn’t let us go. He gave us the love of each other and the power to hold tight through our difficult times.

I fell in love. I fell in lust and even though that didn’t work the way I thought it would it is still ok. My patience have been tried with family but we are still family. I treasure all the good things that have happened this year. I treasure knowing that I am still capable of falling in love, that life has not jaded me. That even in my most weaken moments that I can laugh at others and especially at myself. I am so grateful that even though I did not have my mantra I stayed true to most of myself.

With all the things that could have happened I had a great year. No, I didn’t win the lottery, and I didn’t get the man- I kept my friends and gained new ones. I gained a greater faith.

For you I pray that everything comes the way you want, the way you deserve it to be. I pray that the love I have in my heart will not have to be hidden for long. I pray that when loves comes my way that I recognize it. And I pray that our faith grows.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.

I know some of ya’ll feel that this season is all about giving, and you’re right. I know you know that Christ was not born in December but in the late summer or early fall. I know all this too, but I still like this season. It brings back the memories of being a kid, of getting roller skates and overall. Roller skates- not in-line skates how the hell do people skate on those thing anyway? I think about the Christmas we spent at Grady’s’ emergency room when my sister broke her arm on those roller skates. This season brings back great memories for me. The joy and excitement of the Christmas pageant every year at our church- Bethlehem Church of God Holiness. We would practice for months our part and each year put on a play. I wonder if they still do that.

When I got older and had children the old feelings came back. Although trying to put together my boys bikes with a butter knife and toe nail clippers were by no means fun. But I got them together. They rode those bikes Christmas morning until the front wheel came off. Next year I paid to get them assemble.

My Children are older now, no bikes, ping-pong tables or Nintendo games for them. I’m really at a lost as to what to get them, but I don’t sweat it. They seem to be happy with whatever I get. I have grandchildren they’re young 1 and 2 so they have no idea what’s going on.

I like the feeling that comes with this season more than anything. I like knowing that Christ is born, and that he was sent to take away my sins and prepare a room in his Father house. I like knowing that Christ is King of Kings. I like this season.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.